Monthly Archives: September 2016

Will YOU remember ME?

1024_1069125859787707_7567550745995162315_n184414_10151642914512863_1045860989_nWriting has never been something, that has come easy, for me, except WITH Jesus. You see, I am instructed, and then the instructions, are followed. Often, the emotions, I am feeling, are not just mine. I am certain, I am not alone in this. Because, JESUS when, HE walked the earth, faced these, “giants” of sorts. He faced them, head on, and He conquered them ALL. Now, THAT is the GREATEST news. The victory, is NOT in what we SEE, or even HEAR, UNLESS WE are seeing through HIS eyes.

This is a tough entry, not because Jesus cannot do it. But, more because, it requires even more transparency. Every time, I think, I can’t share more, I cannot go deeper….well, surprise. He can. Thank GOD, I can sit back, and let HIM. Thank GOD for the Grace, to BE. Especially, for the Grace to BE ME…HIS kid, His baby, His wife, His Love. Oh my, it’s not easy somedays. But, know it IS worth it. Thank GOD, WE can be US.

I’m not sure if I have shared this before. But, my husband David, is both very emotional, and very NOT used to showing emotions. When Sarah went HOME, that changed. At first, it seemed to change in a good way. Particularly, in a GOD way. Then, the old snares came calling. But, JESUS never stops calling. He SEES and HEARS and is PART of EVERYTHING. Yes, God is not the author of confusion. BUT, He can still move in the midst. I used to believe He could be limited. But, even in our unbelieving, doubts, and pouts, HIS LOVE, NEVER ever stops flowing.

Sometimes, Jesus just obviously takes over, and steps UP. Both, in David and in me, and our Heavenly kids. Other times, it seems like a disaster, that will never end. WE are naturally so hard on ourselves. Yet, JESUS is firm with us, but NEVER harsh, with HIS babes. WE are naturally tough on others, if we are hard on ourselves. Forgive us LORD.

THIS song came on…

“Chasing Cars”

By: Snow Patrol

We’ll do it all
On our ownWe don’t need
Or anyoneIf I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

FOR ME….MUSIC was, a stone in the path to salvation. I pray, that is true, for all the babes, of Heaven. Because, despite the fact, that music, here has appeared, to be influenced, for the bad; JESUS LOVE. He still wants to bring rescue…and HE IS RESCUE.
THIS song came on next…
How to Save a Life
Step one, you say we need to talk
He walks, you say sit down, it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left, and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I
JESUS saved me, before I ever came to earth. He saved you, before your natural birth. He feels your hurts, and pain. Your losses, are so deeply HIS gains. But, cruel, He is not. He gives YOU all He has got. Forgive us Lord, for pride…Help us reside, in your eyes. To enjoy even the toughest days, of THIS ride. You make us NEW, we worship YOU. We thank you for your LOVE, and choose to remember. Despite the aches we feel, We know YOUR LOVE is REAL. I have felt angry, maybe at YOU. I must say I’m sorry, for ALL I put you through. But, I am grateful for every breath. Even when it hurts, and I can barely stand. As I climb this mountain, I LOVE the view. But, it is sometimes hard to exist. Because no one can see, like YOU, without YOU. Help us. WE are LOST, but FOUND. We are starting NOW, to remember YOU. We remember the GOOD, and the TRUTH. Forgive the religious olds, and grant Heaven in place, as we are told. The babes are crying, obvious, and not. So many dying, running themselves in the ground. Leaveing others wailing, the pictcher is on the mound. The enemy is out, and those who follow him, shall see. JESUS is shouting the final call. It BLARES the word….VICTORY. Glory.
THIS world is hurting. It does not NEED criticisms, or chastisements. Forgive us LORD. Take over us, and bring YOUR advisements. It is TIME for the BODY to unite. To unite from unholy ties that bind. It is TIME for releasse, launch, and so much more. I stand and sit, on Heaven’s floor. What about YOU? What are WE waiting for? Are we looking upon mistakes, as the ones holding the gate keys?
Because, the TRUTH is, when we remember Jesus, we remember the good. THEN, it begins to show up, more than the BAD. Or, to HIS point, the seemingly BAD. Because, in JESUS everything literally IS, ALL GOOD. There is no fear there. There is no pain, no tears, no hurt, in HIM, there is only LOVE. That does not mean, that IN Him, we won’t feel. It just means, those feelings will NOT rule our days. Because, that is not HIS ways.
Yet, Thank GOD for the Grace to feel. As a child, I hurt myself so deeply. I cut myself, behind the scenes. So few knew, yet, it felt I wore it on my sleeves. I remember the very first day. I saw, from the corner of my eye, what looked like a glympse of Heaven. Jesus was weeping, crying tears of blood. I will never forget that day. I tried, so hard to get FREE on my own. He kept calling me, like a phone that would not stop ringing. It was age 14, that I began. I thought I was worthless. I was supposedly raised, in a Christian home. Yet, everyone seemed so alone, around me. I would try to read the word, of God, and it would confound me.
So, I went off on a trip, and oh what a journey, it has been. Into the darkness. Down the rabbit hole. Jesus was with ME. He never left my side. Thank God for those, who stayed along for the ride. SO grateful…So healed, and made new. Almost 40 years, died too many times to count. But, the one that matters most, was on the cross, with Jesus. We were in the audience, throwing stones, and yet With HIM.
The world will tell you, THAT considering YOUR needs is selfish. But, Jesus tells us, that honoring GOD is never selfish. AND, He made US. WE are so important to HIM. So, will you remember JESUS? Will you see HIM in your babies eyes. In her ashes, for us. As I said, THIS is so hard. I am weeping, as I type. There is hurt and healing in these words, that are writen.
I know sometimes WE seem deep, but at the CORE, we are just kids. Ones who want to be loved, and must remember WE are HIS. I repented before Heaven, for hurting that which, HE LOVES. He healed me…in 2003, and here I stand, cut free. I never hurt myself on purpose, anymore, and it takes Jesus to remind…That He redeems the time, every single moment. Despite how I think, feel, or SEE. His LOVE spands eternity.
So, I encourage you ALL, to remember the LOVE. It is hidden inside you, because He placed it there. Make Jesus smile today, and say I choose YOU, and I choose YOUR ways. Take over, and do it JESUS, NOW and every day. 🙂

Psalm 111:5

He has given food to those who fear Him; He will remember His covenant forever.

Luke 1:69-73

And has raised up a horn of salvation for us In the house of David His servant– As He spoke by the mouth of His holy prophets from of old– Salvation FROM OUR ENEMIES, And FROM THE HAND OF ALL WHO HATE US;

Psalm 105:42For He remembered His holy word With Abraham His servant;

Deuteronomy 6:20-23

“When your son asks you in time to come, saying, ‘What do the testimonies and the statutes and the judgments mean which the LORD our God commanded you?’ then you shall say to your son, ‘We were slaves to Pharaoh in Egypt, and the LORD brought us from Egypt with a mighty hand. ‘Moreover, the LORD showed great and distressing signs and wonders before our eyes against Egypt, Pharaoh and all his household;

Joshua 1:3

“Every place on which the sole of your foot treads, I have given it to you, just as I spoke to Moses.

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance.

Isaiah 49:15-16

“Can a woman forget her nursing child And have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, but I will not forget you. “Behold, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; Your walls are continually before Me.

Genesis 19:29

Thus it came about, when God destroyed the cities of the valley, that God remembered Abraham, and sent Lot out of the midst of the overthrow, when He overthrew the cities in which Lot lived.

Genesis 30:22

Then God remembered Rachel, and God gave heed to her and opened her womb.

1 Samuel 1:19-20

Then they arose early in the morning and worshiped before the LORD, and returned again to their house in Ramah And Elkanah had relations with Hannah his wife, and the LORD remembered her. It came about in due time, after Hannah had conceived, that she gave birth to a son; and she named him Samuel, saying, “Because I have asked him of the LORD.”

Luke 1:54-55

“He has given help to Israel His servant, In remembrance of His mercy, As He spoke to our fathers, To Abraham and his descendants forever.”

Hebrews 8:10-12


Jeremiah 31:33-34

“But this is the covenant which I will make with the house of Israel after those days,” declares the LORD, “I will put My law within them and on their heart I will write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people. “They will not teach again, each man his neighbor and each man his brother, saying, ‘Know the LORD,’ for they will all know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them,” declares the LORD, “for I will forgive their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more.”

In His Grace and Glory,

Elea and Fam


26 Sep 2016

None but Jesus

Haven’t written that much in a while. Because, to be totally transparent, I have been feeling pretty overwhelmed. I am honest to a fault, because i cannot lie. If I say something, that appears to be untrue, I get so convicted, and like immediately confess it. I suppose, it’s just the way Jesus created me. I’m both grateful, and yet at times, have been tormented by it.

Now this, does not mean, I never fell for a lie. Because, there were times, that I absolutely I did. Without Jesus at the helm, I’m sure I still would. But, through the process of surrender, I am seeing Jesus bring wholeness and healing, to His body. His delight is YOU. He created YOU. He adores and LOVES YOU. Those are not just words.

Have you ever felt forsaken, neglected, dejected, and thrown away? Because, if SO, then you are in good company. Jesus experienced, very little acceptance. Most often, what He received was “pretended acceptance.” How many of you, have had someone say they just love you, then drop you, when it suits them? Well, Jesus will NEVER ever do that! Anyone who really closely knows HIM, should not do that either.

IF WE are the face of HIS Grace, then WE must consider others, in our actions. Ultimately, in doing so, WE honor JESUS in full. We honor our Heavenly Father, and the Holy Spirit. You deserve honor, because Jesus loves you. YOU are the child of a KING, of royal and holy decent. Who is it that receives the honor in YOU, Jesus. But, because He adores you, He shares HIS LOVE. Jesus embodies selflessness. His name mean, holy sacrifice.

YOUR name In HIM is important. Today, take the time, and seek what HE calls you?

Who do you say I am, “You are the Christ, the risen son of God.”

Matthew 16:13-20Amplified Bible (AMP)

Peter’s Confession of Christ

13 Now when Jesus went into the [a]region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked His disciples, “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?” 14 And they answered, “Some say John the Baptist; others, Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah, or [just] one of the prophets.” 15 He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” 16 Simon Peter replied, “You are the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed), the Son of the living God.” 17 Then Jesus answered him, “Blessed [happy, spiritually secure, favored by God] are you, Simon son of Jonah, because flesh and blood (mortal man) did not reveal this to you, but My Father who is in heaven. 18 And I say to you that you are [b]Peter, and on this [c]rock I will build My church; and the[d]gates of Hades (death) will not overpower it [by preventing the resurrection of the Christ]. 19 I will give you the keys (authority) of the kingdom of heaven; and whatever you bind [forbid, declare to be improper and unlawful] on earth [e]will have [already] been bound in heaven, and whatever you loose [permit, declare lawful] on earth [f]will have [already] been loosed in heaven.” 20 Then He gave the disciples strict orders to tell no one that He was the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed).

08 Sep 2016

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