Yearly Archives: 2018

XTREME 😇 NIGHT LIGHT/LIFE ~ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

downloadailmentGrief551976_356879881087543_1016047998_nlove (1)2011-08-20 18.54.40o11202110_10154345977482785_478541223262868865_n10356327_797736560298840_800842292463146719_nFIRST song…” A little Bit Stronger” (Sara Evans) “”Even on my Weakest Days…I get a little bit Stronger”” YES…This LYRIC brings SOOOOOOOOOO MANY emotions to ME. PLEASE Hear, heart2 heart💞 MY heart! I MUST CONFESS. MY WEAKNESS!!!! It Makes me 😠 ANGER , at times, when people see ME and think, wow SHE is SO 💪 STRONG . Perhaps, that is PARt pride. And man, DO I lay, THAT down…EVERY SINGLE DAY. TEARS. Tears😭 To come to the PLACE, where I COULD and CAN, admit I AM WEAK. DEAR LORD, THAT I, whatever YOU call my NAME. Call me…Katy…Call me Katherine…Call me Ellie. Call me Elea. It matters NOT to ME. Because, I AM CALLED HIS. And, the FACT is, I am, only 💪 STRONG , by HIS GRACE…yet ALSO, I AM WEAK….though, by His grace humbled meek & kind. In process.  A mess 2, at times.  Oh my, Grace Grace.

 

 

 

 

Some DAYS…I just LOOK up, and say…MAKE it STOP!!! Can I change my self, my identity???? PLEASE. My name again? I am saying this, just to be real and RAW. The old tries to get back in.  You see? I get Hit from ALL sides too.  In some ways, I am like you.  💗 And, this work, HE does. .. Through US.. & Me is not ALWAYS,  done with  EASE. No matter, how it MAY APPEAR……

Please 👂 hear what I’m saying here. It is why, over the years, He has made CLEAR… That LOVE comes… With Heavenly boundaries.  Oh, my have they been tough, to learn and set.  But, when in place.  He brings… The BEST.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

 

What He does, He does WELL. No questions there.  But as a VESSEL…..   There is suffering that comes.  It’s just part of the DEAL. And it is a GIFT. 🎁 Long suffering… But, oh… the sift, and SHIFT.

And the shut up… And the put up… That is often needed in the surrender..  Process.  As, “I will Trust in You” plays.  Yes!!!!!  No doubt, about that.  The only trust, in in Jesus!  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

But, it is DONE with JOY, by HIS GRACE. Love❤️ We ENJOY, HIS LOVE. His GIFTS, and BLESsINGS, WE appreciate. But, the NIGHT time, the DARK hours. We face, often tough challenges, MOST. He knows why. So, of HIS LOVE, WE BOAST. Because, it is a waste to give credit to the bad. It simply makes Jesus SAD. And we like to see JESUS smile . :)❤️

 

 

 

 

 

Thinking back today, as the song , once again plays, ” I NEED YOU.” I am in TEARS again. Because, GOD I miss my BABY GIRL. Breaking💔 I miss her every single day. I miss seeing her smile, when she woke up, each day. I miss kissing her and hugging her, b4 bed, EVERY single night. And these are things, I rarely speak OF. Let ALONE, write about. But, I was told 2 day, it was a MUST. 🌳🌲🌱🌷🌼🌻🌺💐🌸💮🏵🌹🐞🐝🐜🐛🐌

 

 

And I feel HER with me today. I can hear my angel girl. Angel😇 Saying, “Mommy, It is gonna be okay. You ALL are doing great. We know that this is hard. But, remember there is a plan. And, it is going, according to the schedule. Just keep laying it down, and you will see. Surprise after surprise. 🎁🎀🎊🎉🎈🎖🎸🎹🎤🎶🔊🔔🏳💎💍💄📿More and more victory. Right before your eyes. I love you sweet Mommy, and daddy David 2. Hug and kiss sweet Simbea. I love you. ” ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

The next song… “Bring the Rain” — Acoustic — ( Mercy Me)

 

 

 

Messages from Heaven…Help. Love❤️ They often come at NIGHT. Sometimes, early morning, or when the suN/SON is BRIGHT. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Another Lyric on “Sunshine in the darkest days, better half/saving grace ” (you make it easy – Jason Aldean ) He later says…” I swear God made you for me.” Oh, this is how I feel about my sweet🍯 Honey BEAR. JESUS, in HIM especial. Love love❤️ But, OH the PAIN 2 get THERE…. This JOURNEY….OH MY….now the SONG…. “I won’t LET GO” Jesus telling me through Rascal Flats — that HE won’t LET GO OF ME. ” I will HOLD YOU tight, and I won’t let GO.” :)❤️

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When Sarah’s final FLIGHT happened….It was UNDER a RAINBOW LIGHT. To ME that was SO profound. Now, THAT is ONLY part, of the story. But, the LIGHT, so BRIGHT…and so MANY butterflies, EVERY COLOR. The SCENE…LIKE THE ONE FROM GHOST. AT THE VERY END. Patrick Swayze’s character has a LINE. It sticks out to me…STRONG. It ALWAYS has. My husband says, I always knew, WHAT was 2 come. In the film, He looks at HIS wife. He says, ” It’s amazing MOLLY, the LOVE Inside. Carry it with YOU, wherever YOU Go. ” It is at that point, as He is flying up to Heaven, that He says, ” I Love you.” And she says, “Ditto.” Because, SHE is so MOVED…by the PRESENCE and EssENCE of HEAVEN that she can BARELY SPEAK. AND WOW…..do I get THAT….. TEARS…. ❤️ 🌳🌲🌱🌷🌼🌻🌺💐🌸💮🏵🌹

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The song now….’YOU ARE I AM” – (MERCY ME) “THE VEIL IS TORN) oh ARe WE LIVING proof of THIS…. SUCH TRUTH. LOVE anyway….Grace GRACE…LOVE above ALL ELSE…. LOVE truly WINS!!!!! And THAT is the GOOD/GREAT NEWS! RESt is needed. Pain will happen. Healing will COME. Hurt will Go. We will grieve. But, LOVE, HIS LOVE—– YES—- 100% BEST ingredient in EVERY single recipe. LOVE!!!!!!!! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pause will BE preseed…..and PRESSED indeed….. There will be times, that because of HIS LOVE, we will feel like, we just want OUT. But, HE will HEAR our shout, and bring RESCUE. and MANY others will GET rescue too. 🙂 THAT is the BEST part, about HIS LOVE and HIS heart. IT NEVER EVER EVER stops, or FAILS. ~~~~~ His LOVE prevails. In the NIGHT, Day, in EVERY way. He is MIGHTY 2 Save. YOu and Me 2. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

His LOve is a light, unto my path. 🙂 📹 🏮 🕯 🔦 ❤️

In His Grace,

Elea Grace

#HisLOVEismynightlight

 

18 Aug 2018

🌳LOVE BOOMS❤️ and BLOOMS ~ 🌷🌼🌻🌺💐🌹🌸

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2780_106607207784_6557066_nHad Little to NO Intention of Writing 2DAy. Woke, with an ODD dream.  And, YEt at UM 4 something I was awoken for 2nd time…in the NIGHT. And this TIME…specific INSTRUCTION. “UP 4 GOOD.” OKay, I said.” But, I need to admit, I was not my usual , um HAPPY GO Lucky Perky…chirpy self. THANK Heavens FOR GRACE. BECAUSE…I LOOKED up, and I said, ” I need a MINUTE to whine…” Yes, YOU heard me write. Not just coreeect. I literally said, I need a minute, to VENT. He is my VERY best friend. You know, what HE said to ME??? He said, You have 5. LOVE 🙂 ❤️

 

 

 

GRACE GRACE…. How did I GET to by THIS PLACE???! ! This place THAT is so love❤️ BEAAUTIFUL…BUT, make NOOOOOO MISTAKE at TIMES so VERRRRY HARD….. You do NOT get to even consider the BAD…because it is NO choice, for YOUR voice. And when it ENTERS, your ATMOSphere…and TRIES to bring tears2 FEAR…GRACE GRACE? You 🙊  SEE? That’s ME?! ? My LIFE. It has to BE. The song…(MERCY ME)”If I knew then, what I knew now…Dear younger Me…It’s not your fault…(love you) you ❤️  were never meant, to carry this…beyond the cross.” Oh Jesus has SO taught ME THIS… Still DOES… EVERY SINGLE day… BUT, HE teaches OLDER ME TOO! Because, WE are ONE and the SAME. Oh the BURN…at TIMES in the NAME…And the yearn… 2… But it is a HEAVENLY ONE~~~~

 

 

 

 

 

The BOOm….Oh IT IS a GOOD ONE… As a KID, I loved, the FIREWORKS, on the 4th of JULY. I still LOVE to WATCH  them, but the LOUD sounds, sometimes BOTHER my ears. Ears👂 Because when you have experienced, as MUCH intensity, as I Have, in LIFE…your hearing, just GETS affected. My 5 senses, are at TIMES more sensitive, than other people. BUT, JESUS has HEALED me. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

AND HE is in FULL CHARGE…of ALL 5!!! ❤️

 

 

 

Last year, in DEcember I was diagnosed, with an Xtreme Histamine issue…and it was AWFUL… Sad🙁 Seriously…I could NOT EAT normal FOODS. I ate things like turkey and apple sauce for weeks, then, no apple sauce. Then, I was down to 3 kids foods. The ones SARAH ate. THAT was not LOST on ME. Also, THIS happened 1 DAY before her 4 year Heavenaversay. YES…it was SCARY. AND, I do NOT scare easily.

 

 

 

 

WE ate from a locale restaurant. Name, not important. It felt like someone overdosed ME, with drugs. Yuck…BUT GOD! He saved ME! He ALWAYS DOES! Love❤️ We were watching a GAME SHOW! I told my husband, PRESS PAUSE!!! (Then Jesus pressed pause on Me 😉 ) He did, and got my oxygen(machine died 3 days later)…and if He did NOT, I would be GONE…DEAD and GONE…But not the plan of HEaven…My Husband Helped. 🙂 Jesus Heard my YELP.

 

 

 

David nursed me through the night, was so loving and kind. Love❤️ And within a few days, our amazing doctor had the answer. We would later find. HIstamine… HIS TIMING- Jesus Broke it down. Grateful. So Very Grateful.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

REMEMBER – I CAN EAT NOW!!! ANYTHING He leads. (July 12, 2018) I was healed fully.  I am wise. I don’t eat, anything I please. But, He has healed me 🙂  It is FUNNY to me, the SONG on the RADIO… (Ryan Stevenson) “No matter what YOU’ve done you cannot change HIS LOVe…” EXACTLY—- I confess, when I have had TRIALS happen in my LIFE…almost EVERY TIME…I have asked JESUS…”DID I do SOMETHING Wrong?” And He always says to Me, “Wrong is NOT my song.” Love❤️ The point is not right or wrong with JESUS…It is LOVE. Love❤️ ❤️ ❤️ It is ALWAYS…Come HERE LOVE…Let’s Work this THROUGH…TOGETHER. I am in TEARS, as I TYPE THIS….❤️

 

 

 

Because, THERE has BEEn and STILL IS SOME DEEEEEP HEALING taking PLACE with THIS TOPIC. With Sarah, I had been told, I was going to be a bad MOM, I had other moms telling me I was a bad mother, and that my husband and I raised her wrong. And then, when she went HOME…WE had slander…about THAT too. And I went to JESUS…with my HEART…and I said, “SEEEEEE THIS is WHY I NEVER WANTED A CHILD!” My husband asked me once, if “DEEP down, I knew that one day Sarah would go HOME b4 US, and that WE would experience THAT KIND of PAIN?” ANd I said, “If so, it was not a conscious thought. But, I was always scared of having children. Scared of what I would pass on. Because, of what was told, about me. How horrible, I was.” Tears….5:23 Grace Grace (Sarah went Home – 12/23)

 

 

 

 

The Song….”I lift my Hands up 2 the ONE who Saves…I am FREE.” YES I am FREE “MERCY ME” Such FREEDOM EXISTS NOW!!!! I can Hardly put INTO WORDS! The LAUGHTER, THAT COMES…NOW the SONG… “OUR GOD” – Chris TomLIn is ON! and THAT song- is JUSt an ANTHEM!!! I have SUNG it ON STAGE! And NOW HE is REMINDING ME, I WILL SING it ON STAGE aGaIN, with MY FAMILY!!!! YES!!! THAT, I WILL JOYFULLY DO!!!! ANYTHING WITH YOU!!!! LOVE BLOOMS AND BOOMS!!!! YES, it DOES!!!! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

Because, of His Love, I became An Amazing Mommy… And my husband An Amazing Daddy… But Because of His Love… Our Amazing Angel 😇 Butterfly… yes… No Words…

 

 

 

The Song… “Even If” Tears… Every Day… Every Year…

Forgiving to Live….  ❤️

#ONETHINGREMAINSLOVE

In HIS GRACE,

Elea GRACE

 

 

 

17 Aug 2018

School 4 Jesus 😇 ❤️

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god-of-the-broken-home-cc-image_october_201312933147_1006662052755725_309458154322036022_nAs a kid/child. I absolutely LOVED school. Well, i mean…i LOVED to LEARN. Love ❤️  I loved to take tests, and get strait A’s. Because, when I did, I saw it, as an achievement. Now, I grew UP, with an ENTIRE…FAMILY BIOLOGICAL of TEACHERS. 🙂 In FACT, Some of my BIOLOGICAL Family, have won, amazing AWARDs, for being some of the BEST teachers, in the state, that they WORK. Seriously, I have been, beyond BLESSED to be IN the MIDST of A LOT of KNOWLEDGE. ❤️

 

 

 

 

Right now, there is a SONG…and it says…” Take your Records…take your FREEDom…Take your Memories…I don’t Need em’ ” This SONG used to be, ONE that, I used to sing…and be quite angry about. Because, I carried a LOT of HURT, regarding the pAST. I kept A LOT of records of WRONG. And now, Because, of the SCHOOL 4 Jesus, and with HIM, I don’t. And, that does not make me better, or more good. It simply, makes me HIS. It is a CHOICE, that I have to make daily. Forgiving, not to survive, but so HIS LOVE can actually THRIVE. ❤️

 

 

 

Back, to the Grading system, of the world, well. My biological MOM, she taught me…quite A LOT. By, HIS Grace. Some good, and some NOT. The good, we will STAY there a minute. She said, “You teach in EVERYTHING you do!” One of the greatest lessons, I have ever learned. 🙂 Yes, that is “SO TRUE!”To quote, a MOVIE LINE (27 dresses) And that makes me giggle like His lion kid…here is why…27 is the GOSPEL of Jesus CHRIST!!!! Love❤️

 

 

 

So, my MOM taught me, “don’t wear your emotions, ON your SLEEVE.” Plus, “Have FAITH, and BELIEVE!”  ❤️  One NOT so GOOD…I saw her FEAR a lot…and yet she’d say have Faith… but SEE…Jesus has shown ME…”HER HEART…LOOK at her HEART!” ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

In the HEART…there is PAIN, there is LOVE, there is so MUCH there…there is the STORY of our LIVES… ALL in the HEART. Not, just the mind.  YES! the SCHOOL of JESUS…is the SCHOOL 4 JESUS… EVERY OCEAN of EMOTION, is THERE…in the ❤️  HEART….and the GREATEST one is LOVE… ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

 

 

MY sweet ANGEL 😇 BUTTERFLY…SARAH ELIZABETH…well BOTH…but, my LITTLEST ONE, is a TEACHER. take 2 . one of the GREATEST teachers…SHE learned from the BEST. JESUS. 🙂 I am in TEARS HERE…so MANY reasons WHY….Heavenly PRIDE. HONOR as her MOM. SADNESS. JOY. OH BOY. Hearing the SONG. LYRICS… “MY OLD FRIEND…GOODBYE…GOODBYE..MY OLD FRIEND…GOODBYE…GOODBYE…” And the song goes off. Silence.

 

 

You see, I NEVER say GOODBYE…but yet, I say GOODBYE every DAY, in HONOR 2 JESUS. Love❤️ and ONLY HE gets THAT in FULL. I have had to COME 2 THIS place. He has shown ME, some never DO. and that is TOTALLY okay… Because, that is simply where they are. It is where my surrender IS. It is where I have to BE…

 

 

Because, if I do NOt. It literally WILL KILL Me. Rememeber, in 2015….my love/heart❤️ stopped….and I literally left earth…for 5 minutes. And I eventually  returned. I did not have a NEAR death experience. I literally LEFT.

 

 

 

So, when I CHOSE 2 RETURn…Well, there is a certain BurN that comes with THAT….And it is AWFUL and BEAUTIFUL. and some EMBRACE…and OTHERS RUN. SOME LIE to YOUR FACE, and OTHERS WELL, it is hard to PUT INTO WORDS. But, it WAS DONE 2 JESUS too. So, one DAY at a time, I make the BEST. take the REST and choose 2 be NOT a FOOL.  I Choose LOVE. Love❤️

 

 

HIS school HAS NO BULLIES 🙂  It has AWESOME AWARDS 🙂 Oh, SUCH KNOWLEDGE and beauty 🙂 He promises nothing but GOOD things, and to guard you ALL along the way.

 

 

So, TODAY, THIS day of LOVE, sign up 4 the school of JESUS!!!! It is the best CHOICE you will EVER MAKE 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

IN HIS GRACE,

 

 

Elea Grace

16 Aug 2018

Kidnapped 2 Heaven 😇 ❤️ 😇

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Jesus sometimes, has me, do some ODD things. Things, that would, make other people scratch their heads? ANd, to be honest, in the beginning, I did too. But, over the YEARS, I have seen HIM prove HIS ❤️ , and SWEAR HIS LOVE, to ME. ANd TRUST ME, THIS LOVE is FOR YOU 2. 🙂 THIS is JUST the KIND of ❤️  HE HAS. But, 2 the tittle of the BLOG, today…Yes, I have been stalling a bit. Because though it IS a BEAUTIFUL topic, IT is ONE of the HARDEST I have ever spoken OF. It concerns HIS ❤️ . But, It referes to Sarah’s final flight HOME. I am shaking, as I type. But, I must do this, because I know, it is the right thing.

Right after she WENT HOMe, under a RAINBOW, butterfly 😇 👐  LIGHT…Jesus moved us 15 (REST) miles down the road.❤️  In the NEW place. I just could not speak. (to Jesus) I was not ANGRY at God. Though many claimed I was. Now, my husband, a different story. One, for another day. But, that day, when we signed the lease, such peace. and hidden away we were, for a bit. And yet, to Jesus Only, I could NOT speak. I guess over time, I have realized, I could not speak, because I was just GONE. I was THERE. At the THRONE. To others I could.  Naturally, I kept on.  Trying to be “normal. ” Yet, night would arrive.  And days would come. And Jesus never left my side.

Looking back, I recall people telling me.. “it is okay 2 grieve.” What each didn’t understand, is I was.  Things were not as it seemed.  I was grieving hard, oh…. Ripped At the seams.  I had walked in. I found my child, and she had no heartbeat.  She was gone.  I picked her up.  I held her in my arms.  I still remember, so Strong.  Weeping HARD still.  We prayed the resurrection, prayer, and JESUS brought her back.  I felt her 💓 Heartbeat. But, ONLY LOVE ❤️ for a moment. Then, the sweetest 🍯 Voice… “Mommy… Daddy… Well, I tried to come back, but I can’t. Because , God needs me more… Forgive me ”  Then she Flew Away… Into JESUS ‘s arms….  ❤️ 💔

For 5 to 5.5 Months. Grace Grace. I sat with Jesus. I did NOT MOVE. It was AWFUL. But it WAS Beautiful. There WAS such PEACE. There was such PAIN. There was LITERALLY EVERYTHING. ANd there were NO WORDS needed. HE just HELD ME. In my ENTIRE LIFE, I had NEVER KNOWN LOVE, LIKE THIS. I remember, when SARAH was, bursting, forth to HEAVEn, It was so BEAUTIFul, and AWFUL…Because, to participate in it…SUCH a GIFT. But, again, as I TYPE THIS….

The song, “MY BEST FRIEND” comes on… ANd JESUS in HER…. MY BEST FRIEND… TEARS

Jesus in DAVID…. MY BEST FRIEND….

I have LEARNED to have JESUS in everyone BE THAT… ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

OH it HAS not BEEN an EASY LESSOn….

Every SINGLE DAY…. BY God’s Grace …. I experience HEAVEn, and IT does NOT KILL me, It HELPS Heal ME….

But, it is ONLY by HIS GRACE… ❤️

Because HE knows HOW it can Be Medicine…and Not become and ADDICTION….

Words can HURT, or HEAL…. HIS LOVE is ALWAYS REAL ~~~~ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

I told someone just yesterday, I AM greatful, for the JOY. But, I still experience the sorrow. They are MARRIED together. That is just the way it is. And, I am okay with that. Because, HIS LOVE is worth it. 🙂 ❤️

In HIs Grace, Mercy and Love,

Elea Grace

14 Aug 2018

LOVE AMONGST HAZE ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

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You know, being on CALL for the ONE who KNOWS it ALL is the MOST love❤️ beautiful, and DIFFUCULT JOB. I am so honored, to HAVE it. BUT, I remember EVERY day, that IT, TAKES love❤️ JESUS…IN FULL. That, if I start making, LIFE about ME…Well, YOU SEE. THINGS, GET MESSY…FAST. It GOES from JOYFUL to DRAINING, FAST.  Did you notice, that the word, difficult, got spelled different? That was not accidental. It requires, YOU being PUT in, the WORD! BOTH, the WORD difficult, and the LIFE word…and LIFE WORD. In Proverbs, there is a VERSE, that kept playing, on MY HEART today. It is found in the ADDRESS of 19:21. I find that fascinating, because 19 is FAITH, and 21…OVERCOMING SIN. I remember one version I read saying…”Many are the ways, of a man’s heart. But, the Lord delivers Him , from them ALL. “You SEE our HEART can LEAD us ASTRAY. Especially, WHEN it has been hurt. 💔

 

 

Something else, the LIFE BOOK, our LOVE story from HOME, says, is that the HEART is “deceitful, above ALL things.” Now, I believe HERE, it is referring to a HEART that, has not been surrendered. ONE thing, I will NEVER 4 get…it was so HARD. Our butterfly angel😇 came, with a message. It was a few months, after her final flight. In it, she said, ” IT IS CRITICAL TO STAY SURRENDERED.” Now this message came from the Heavenly Father. Beautiful as the messenger WAS, IS and ALWAYS will be. The message, NOT EASY. STILL THIS DAY. IT TAKES JESUS…TO DO THIS. AND NOT IN 1 AREA. EVERY single AREA and TERRITORY, MUST STAY this WAY.

 

 

So, let’s GET specific…BECAUSE THAT is REQUIRED 2 DAY….

 

 

HEALTH…

FOOD…

FAMILY…

CHILDREN….

FINANCE…

LIVING SITUATION….

FRIENDS…

JOB/CAREER….

VACATIONS….

NEEDS….

ANYTHING ELSE on YOUR HEART….

Because the KING CARES…..

 

 

 

He is clear, THAT He will GIVE us the DESIRES of our HEARTS. However, HE does NOT say, that THINGS will NOT FALL apart… or APPEAR to FALL apart…BEFORE WE RECEIVE them? Has THIS EVER happened to you? STOP. In the NAME of LOVE. By NOW. I am certain…HIS LOVE , has drawn oUT some tEARS from YOU…because it Does that… 🙂 It is the Healing Power…

 

 

 

The song on the Radio 🙂 “Christ in ME” 🙂 YES – EVERY HOUR we NEED HIM 🙂

 

 

He does not say, THIS world will not startle us. But, being startled, is NOT the same thing, as being moved. In fact, ONE definition I found for IT was to surprise. Oh, HOW often JESUS reminds me, that He felt FEAR, but never CHOSE FEAR. Grace GRACE… He says to ME. I was walking…and it was dark, and the flashlight was on, and something popped up, and it startled me, a bit. And, I jumped a bit. But, i was unharmed, because He guarded me.

 

 

It is NOT our JOB to worry about the DARk. It is our JOB to LOVE. And HE will LIFE and lift that LOVE up, above the HAZE of the WORLD. AND those who WANT it, will GRAB onto IT for, DEAR LIFE!!! And, THOSE who Don’T, well JESUS will handle them. Years ago, a band named TEARS 4 FEARS came out. A song they had. “Sowing SEEDS of LOVE.” Yes, THAT is the point. JUST LOVE!

 

 

And, AS you do THIS…in ALL you ARE and BECOME..OH the JOY, YOU will HAVE. I will GIVE you an EXAMPLE. Recently, WE had something come up, my husband and I..and it could have been a wrench. It was something, we suspected a while back. AND, when this dropped, in our laps, WE did NOT exactly HAVE a support TEAM in place. But, WE HAVE and HAD then, the GRACE of GOD. AND AMIDST the HAZE of the BAD STUFF…and there was A LOT, just to BE REAL…HIS LOVE FLOATED UP.

 

 

I am REMINDED of a MOVIE NOW. Of COURSE, being the movie GAL, I am. 😉

 

HOPE FLOATS, is the FILM……

(TEARS…ANOTHER SONG…

ONE MORE DAY… SUCH A TOUGH SONG to HEAR..

 

ONE MORE DAY..ONE MORE TIME…ONE MORE SUNSET..I’d BE SATisFIED…BUT THEN again..I know WHAT it WOULD do…It’d Leave be wishing still..for one more day..with YOU… {FEELING MY SARAh’s} )

 

In Hope Float’s the main CHARACTER goes HOME because she has…to FACE the PAIN of her PAST.  break💔 And the relationship, she has with her MOM, well I related so much to that. And, the scene where her mom, goes (dies) HOME…That, is ALWAYS so tough, for ME to watch. Even the one, before. I can recite, it by HEARt. love love❤️ She is speaking to her grandaughter, and says, “My cup runneth over.” Later the grandaughter says it too. But, at the end, the MAN, she ends up with, is BEST. He, reminds me of my DAVID. And…JESUS in HIM. ❤️

 

I LOVE the end, BECAUSE…it speaks about HOPE. Love❤️ And I remember LEAVING, thinking YES. MY hope is in ONE thing, and ONLY one thing. 🙂 JESUS. ❤️

But, as a child…that seemed easier…didn’t it?

I got older, and I got hurt, and Life happened, and naturally it seemed… that HOPE got put in OTHER stuff. It was so subtle, I don’t think I noticed it…at first….

But LOOKING back…it SEEMS so PAINFULLY obvious…. TEARS….

My husband always says to ME, “Wisdom Is the opposite, of the Obvious.” ❤️

The PAINFUL truth is…IF things were Elea Grace’s WAY, somedays, I would crawl under the covers, and NEVER come out. Sad 🙁 But it is… Because… JESUS is with ME… BUT, HE does NOT LET me. ANd, HE is MY strength. ANd it is NOT My WAY. It is HIS way. And, HIS WAY is BEST. ❤️

 

 

In 2011, I was in prayer, with my then prayer partner. I will never forget, what happened. It still ROCKS me, 2 the core. Though at the time, I did not really understand. The Heavenly Father spoke to me. ❤️  He apologized to me. He said, “I want to apologize to you. For the suffering you have had to endure, and will HAVE to endure. But just know, that IF there, were ANY other WAY, we WOULD have TAKEN it, TOGETHER.” At the time, I looked around, at my life, and everything seemed okay. But, little did I know…what WAS to come….

 

 

I do NOT for one single second, believe THAT word, was JUST for ME. Because, GOD is NO respector of PERSONS. And, the LOVE that HE has for ONE of US, HE has for us ALL. One THING, HE has REALLY broken ME of, IS my DESIRE to FIX things. When I want to NOW, or I am even remotely tempted to try to RUN things, I step back, and hand the reigns over. I am so GRATEFUL for LOVE, GRACE and MERCY. The love love❤️ ❤️ ❤️ MOST BEAUTIFUL 3 CHORD STRAND. Definitely not easily BROKEN. JUST watch GOD. You might think THINGS look ODD. Crazy. These DAYS. But, OH…HOW HIS LOVE will RISE UP….❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

 

I looked up the definition of HAZE…and found that it is…STATE of mental confusion… TO JESUS that is JUST an ILLUSION. REST in HIS LOVE. WATCH HIS LOVE>>>BREAK EVERY SINGLE barrier down, and deliver YOU from the E- GYPT you MUST LEAVE. YOUR PROMISED LAND AWAITS!

In His Grace,

Elea Grace

 

 

 

13 Aug 2018

Butterflies Within & Without ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

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From the FIRST MOMENT, I took a BREATH, I chose JESUS. Love❤️ But, as a baby things happened, around me, that brought certain amounts of chaos and confusion. Sad🙁 And, THOSE circumstances COULD have changed my destiny. BUT JESUS, never left ME. Love❤️ He kept FIGHTING for ME. He clearly states, HE will go after EVERY LOST sheep. And HE WENT after ME, with PASSION. Love❤️

In 2009, when my Sarah Angel Butterfly, was in the hospital, a BOOK came out. IT is MY STORY. Our story as Family… Till then.  WOW. I TEAR UP, as I WRITE THIS. Because the SONG…”It’s YOUR LOVE” Yes, THAT is ABSOLUTELY IT. ❤️

I MADE it OFFICIAL to CHOOSE JESUS, when I was 9 years OLD. ❤️  Someone told me, that Joyce Myers did that too. I said, well JESUS LOVE, it draws YOU in. ❤️ I later found out, that NINE means DIVINE PERFECTION of the HEAVENLY FATHER.  Love❤️  I was at FCA camp. I will NEVER 4 GET that day…. EVERYTHING about it, is WRITTEN on MY HEART.

MY husband and I went on our HONEYMOON, nearby, and I took him there, and I showed him around. BECAUSE, it is SUCH as IMPORTANT place 2 ME, and JESUS. Love❤️ So many times, there were plans, by others to take me AWAY…but JESUS said NO!!! Gives ME BUTTERFLIES. 😇Love ❤️

HE LOVES ME when I AM within, and well without. He has sat with me, when I have been laughing with glee and laughter. And, when I have been weeping tears of BLOOD. He has cried over me, while I took a razor, and sliced at my wrist, because I felt I desever it.  I was often convinced, I deserved the BAD. Oh, how that made, MY JESUS sad.

And, I say this, to SHINE the light on HIS LOVE and RESCUE. What was so strange, was the AVENUE, the road then…that led me to the choice of harm. I watched a “Christain” Program on TV.  Someone called me a Jesus Freak, the other day. I said, you can call me what you like. I LOVE to LOVE. I will tell you some of the STORY, if you like. He rescues ME EVERY day.  The man, later pulled the car over. Saying… Wow.

Side note: I know there are some seeming typos, but I am leaving them in, as instructed…❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Now, The SONG “I NEED YOU.” Yes, THIS is EXACTLY how I FEEL…EVERY MOMENT. ABOUT JESUS. But, I FEEL THIS way about HIM, and the HEAVENLY FATHER and the HOLY SPIRIT. MY FAMILY. I would BE LOST. WITHIN ME… I NEED the LOVE… and well, WITHOUT ME, because I LAY myself DOWN…EVERY DAY. Because, THAT is what it TAKES.

People do NOT Always like what WE bring to the table. It is often, a lot to digest. But, THOSE that do…how beautiful. What a GIFT! Gives us BUTTERFLIES!!! Like the first time, your child was born 🙂 Or, the first day of school!!! Joy, that cannot be described 🙂 It is INSIDE and OUTSIDE! !!

So, IF you want the BUTTERFLIES of HEAVEN. It is QUITE simple REALLY. He says, WE cannot LIVE by BREAD ALONE. So, ALLOW JESUS to CLEAR and CLEAN the LEAVEN. ~~~

HE is WITHIN…and WITHOUT…

Within the GOOD and the BEAUTIFUL… JUST as it SHOULD BE…

and WITHOUT the BAD…. IT is NOT in HIM. SO, it is NOT in US! BECAUSE HE LIVES in US! You See?

He does not CARRY that….

The Greatest of these is HIS LOVE ~~~~

I will put a link, to the story, the BOOK…He had me write in 2009. It official came out 2010. Under my middle name.

https://m.barnesandnoble.com/w/walking-the-line-between-god-and-satan-katherine-sharpe/1102140808?type=eBook

 

Love you ALL. 🙂 He has WON…remember that 🙂 For those, chooseing HIS ways, THAT is FACT.

In His Grace,

Elea Grace

 

 

 

11 Aug 2018

❤️ Groundhog Day In Reverse ❤️

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On that day, something wonderful happened to ME!!!!!! From the moment, I opened my eyes… I got surprised after surprise!!! Miracles BEGAN a new.  And, well, they have NOT stopped.  That day I was told, about a supplement, and my husband went and purchased it.  Before it, even hit my BODY.. .a PArTY began inside OF ME!  I kid you NOT… It was so strange… Suddenly things began to rearrange…

There was this NEW JOY… And I know it WILL never EVER stop.  It will NEVER run DRY… No matter how much I cry.  It is this GIFT.  Placed within and on my Head, as WELL.  Oh… Yes… He has made me whole. COMPLETELY WHOLE!!!!!   It is ALL over my Face.  The GRACE!! !!  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️  It was like every day was a DRESS 👗 rehearsal for THAT ONE day…  when I woke UP!  FREE!!! Knowing that Full 🌝 Victory had been ACHIEVED !

Even today, there is A NEW SONG, and GOD bless the many broken, mangled, shattered, tattered, roads…. That I have walked ON with JESUS never letting ME GO.  The many times, I have made Him cry, the times… He has sat by my side, till I got over myself and repented, and asked for help.  Oh, how He has heard my Yelp… Counted my tears.  Calmed my Fears…  He has my babes. Keeps them safe.  Because they are His most.

Even on my weakest Days… “I get a little bit stronger… ” to quote a country artist… Sara Evans ( gotta Love ❤️  our Sara’s)  God Bless them ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ #heavenspeaksthroughmusic

In life, We are supposed to Love.  It us the number #1 commandment.  Love one another.  Today, the prayer is, that anything in the way, of that love, be healed.  So, that the Love can be FREE.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

We are Living proof, that HIS LOVE heals, it IS REAL, and it WORKS.  No one said, it is ALWAYS easy.  But, the promise is, that it is WORTH it.  Love ❤️

Faith, Hope, and Love… But the Greatest of these… Is Love ❤️

In His Grace,

Elea Grace

06 Aug 2018

It’s IN MY BLOOD ~~~

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When my husband, and I got married, I remember saying this…”You are just, a cowboy. It will take Jesus to tame you.” I had no idea, what I meant. But, I knew deep down, I AM a cowgirl at heart, with JESUS. I know, that HIS plan, is someday, for us, to have a farm. And, that this place, will be healing, for many to come to. This is NOT my plan. So, I am not worried. I used to FEAR, it would not be. But, now I know, THAT is not ME. THAT is NOT in my BLOOD. I AM a KID of FAITH! Not just simple FAITH. But, FAITH that to other people, well just does NOT seem to make sense. And, I am so okay with THAT. Because, IT is NOT MY FAITH. It belongs to JESUS! It is NOT in my BLOOD to choose ANYTHING but LOVE! There is an artist out, who has a song, called, “It is In my BLOOD” And, when I heard the song, I heard it backwards. I had to laugh…because, I know that was GOD. Later, I heard it again, and the kid, who sings it, told the story. And, I thought, wow.  I remember, going through ALL that, as a KID. And, JESUS rescued me. Rescue him, JESUS. Show him, who he is, and how precious he is. One day, I believe, Jesus will make a way, to tell that kid, how much, that song, helped me. 🙂 🙂 🙂

This is such a TIME of GREAT healing, where JESUS is doing SUCH, a mighty work. BUT, I need to be VERY REAL, and tell you that IT often, just HURTS. There is a REASON, for songs, called the HURT and the Healer. They were written, at the throne of Heaven. It simply is not possible to heal, without pain. It just HAS to happen. In our gym, it says, no pain no gain. But, WE know, DEEP down, that our pain, IS HIS GAIN. And that BOTH the statement NO PAIN NO gain, and HIS pain is our gain, are true, 🙂 And, that is totally, okay. 🙂 Thank GOD for Grace! I say that, EVERY single DAY….Grace to breathe, to digest, to receive HIS BEST. To forgive, to LIVE. to EXIST. To Sing. To HOPE in HIS LOVE. To RECEIVE. TO HEAL. Oh, the GRACE….Written on HIS FACE. In Anguish. In JOY.

The Grace to swim in the DEEP and the SHALLOW ENDS. The Grace to be PATIENT, and KIND. AND, to let JESUS fast FORWARD or REWIND. Yes, LATHER, rince…repeat. There is always reason…for HIS purpose, and HIS rhymes.  And often we think we have mispelled, or done wrong. But, Jesus stands, ringing the liberty bell…and passing out, new HEART songs! He is clear, what is on this earth, will NOT stay. But, it still belongs to HIM. SO, the goal, must be to LOVE. To thank HIM for His plans not being undone.

There are SO many THINGS that are popping up…and some well, they at first can, feel like a wrench in the plan. BUT, when surrendered before, our KING. Wow, now the song…FLAWLESS…YES, JESUS WE HEAR YOU! Oh, how GREAT HIS LOVE! YOU ARE so MUCH more than USELESS! Just breathe. Let HIM LOVE you…Cry when you need to. He is catching every single tear. He will show you, everything you need to know. Breathe again. Release. Catch the wind. Smile. In the healing, pool of Bethesda. Yes, Lather, Rinse, Repeat.  In our BLOOD is, the BLOOD of Heaven. Not, an ounce of LEAVEn. But, that does not mean, WE will never suffer. Because, HE suffers with us. Crucified, once, no way. Love struck, by the lightning. Too many times too count. But, thank God for Grace. Thank GOD for HIS LOVE. Oh, this state. This Freedom from that captive place. Chosen and called. Counting it ALL joy yet? 😉

No Regrets will stay here….NO FEAR will survive…JESUS will THRIVE….IT’s IN MY BLOOD…THE LOVE…..THE LOVE THE LOVE THE LOVE THE LOVE….. ❤️

“Even if it gets us convicted, WE will be on our knees, with our hands, LIFTED!” YES… Soken WELL sweet Heaven given, NEWSBOYS!!! Bring that GOOD NEWS!!!!  HEAVEN will NOT be silent! There is such BEAUTY being BIRTHED #heavenspeaks ❤️

IN HIS GRACE,

Elea Grace

 

 

 

03 Aug 2018

Young and Settled N Jesus

184414_10151642914512863_1045860989_n29caf0651dd94f57758d9befcb449fc819693_491506860886978_1220456359_njesus_095Hi! As always, I never really never know, what way He is going to go with each entry. It is SO fun, THIS LIFE adventure, with JESUS!!!! But, make no mistake, not one day passes, that I think, wow that was like really easy. I have had moments, of reflection, even as of late, where I definitely, marvelled at HIS LOVE, and GRACE, That is for SURE. Every day, He makes me….well ME!!!! I could, not BE without HE. You know, how in the LIFE book, it says, He will renew our youth? WELL, I am LIVING PROOF! People, look at me, and say, you cannot be your age. And, I say, I take my JESUS vitamins. Smiling. Everyday.

Today, the 31st, WE, His offspring CELEBRATE HERE, the jump into a new month. Great things are coming, beautiful ones, but don’t misunderstand. These things come with challenges surrounding them. The good news, iS this…HE has already WON! Yes, we can rejoice in THIS! Just yesterday, a storm came, and oh, did HE show up!!!! He said, ” No way! Not, over my rainbow KID! I LOVE HER! She has victory! He rerouted my path! It is settled, by my LOVE! She will not be broken down. No tears, I cannot hold. No fears, I cannot calm.” By Grace, I am continually FREED, and I am Loved out of every captivity. Oh, did that storm calm fast. I sat in AWE. Yes , my KING again, set my heart at EASE. He holds my heartbeat. He is my music.

In the midst, of this day, oh so much had transpired. There was JOY. My Jesus Omnipotent Jeshua. Oh, He gives me such GLEE. So much more than Happy. He also, knows how the concources  of my grief go. because, every day, He decides, from A-Z. I say, sometimes aloud, “Which one are we on today?” Sometimes, I just can’t speak. But, HE always reaches for me. HE is my EVERYTHING. Recently, I went back to my place of birth. Not easy, and well, contains a lot of hurt. But, He promised JOY, in the process. Let me tell you, HE sure did deliver. WE got refreshed, and found healing in the waters. It was lovely to see, many we just adore. And, we are just lovestruck, and how pieces are falling into places.

I cannot tell you, how many times, a day, I am lovingly reminded, “You cannot mess this up.” The first time, was when my sweet , Sarah Butterfly angel was born. That day, I will NEVER forget. You know, how people say, women forget giving birth. Well, I cannot. It is written on my heart. It is so deeply gifted to me. Maybe why He only gave me one, officially. But, when she took her final flight, He told me something more. He said, “No one else can mess this up either. Not even the enemy.” Do you guys hear me. THIS is victory!!!! Jesus said, the ENEMY is defeated. This is in the LIFE book, HIS word. It stsates, He is a defeated foe. GIVE him NO ROOM. Jesus DESERVES YOUR LOVE, and for YOU to RECEIVE HIS!

Lastly, as a child, I watched a show. I have referenced it b4, it is called “The Young and Restless.” Now, whether you like the show, or not. In my childhood, it was a special thing. I watched it with 3 very special people. My mom, my dad, and my Uncle. And JESUS, used THIS show, as a platform, for ME to LOVE on them. And, by association, them to me. I am almost in tears, as I write this. I was not exactly, a completely “normal” kid. And, everyone was always trying to make me that way. Here come the tears. Yet, Jesus accepted. Me. NOW, I am Heavenly proud, and standing in the Grace of GOD alone. Filled with HIS LOVE, Mercy and HOPE. He says YES, to ME every day, and I say YES too! It is a GREAT thing. 🙂 I have had times in my life, I have not watched this show, times when I did. But, what I do know, is JESUS as taught me so much. I often pray for the actors, and families. These stories, come from somewhere. Often great pain. I have observed parallels in my own life. Yet, by HIS Grace, He kept strife, from our home. Oh HIS LOVE. So beautiful. MILK and HONEY. So sweet. So much more to come.

In the last 3 weeks, I have gone from bed to not just walking but, swimming too, and jogging. MIRACLES abound. I can EAT again!!!! Could not EAT FOODS for over a year. BUT, HIS LOVE HEALS!!! MUCH MORE TO COME!!!! HIS LOVE IS REAL!!!!! His LOVE Settles ALL accounts.

 

31 Jul 2018

In His Steps and Hers

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My Mother, and I had a very interesting relationship. In a LOT of ways it was a Love/hate relationship. But looking back, I can safely say, Jesus is what rooted it in LOVE. She was the first person who introduced me, to Jesus. I will always be eternally grateful to her, for that. But, because my mother, had a LOT and I mean a LOT of undealt with pain, and I was a mirror, of that pain, I was not always an easy part of her life. I would watch her, and marvel at her. She was literally a teacher. I’m certain, in the Heaven’s Jesus still uses her, in that capacity. I believe, she and I were more alike, than I knew, but she was scared to speak of it. In that time, it wasn’t something that was done. Even today, so many who knew her, tell me, how proud, she is, or would be of me. How much I remind me of her. I used to be hurt, because I harbored my own pain. I dealt with so much trauma, and even abuse. But, Jesus is a HEALER, and the Holy Spirit a nurturer. Not to mention, our Heavenly Father, is a strong protector, and this beautiful union, just this amazing FAMILY, the greatest GIFT, to be a part of. AND, my greatest desire, is for the family I was birthed from, to be united with the one, I was birthed into. In my heart, I know, ONE DAY, it will BE. Because JESUS doesn’t LIE. He promised ME.

My Mom and Dad, though they had their own pain, and challenges, taught me, and I pray us, deep down to take things one day at a time. Jesus lead our home. ALL be it, it was often silently, and it took years to see what Jesus was doing behind the scenes. If you asked others, in our family if this was true, I’m not certain they’d agree. And that’s okay with me. Because, it’s where THEY are. And, here’s the thing…. Someday, EVERYONE will see. The LIFE BOOK is Heaven’s word. It’s known, as the word of God. And, when it is in YOU, you LIVE in a different way. You have more FREEDOM. You MOVE different. YOU speak DIFFERENT. YOU BREATHE DIFFERENT. YOU MAY SMELL DIFFERENTLY, TYPE DIFFERENTLY< see? 🙂

 

THE POINT is….. HEAVEN has a plan, and surrender of our plan is critical TO that plan being SCENE…..

I walk in the steps, of Sarah…my littlest Angel. Oh they are tiny shoes, and big shoes. Tiny wings, and MIGHTY wings. I also, walk in the steps of my mother Sarah as well. Now, my Father, and so many more. I am so grateful, for the heavenly cloud of witnesses. I will NEVER forget the day on October 18, 2015. It was nighttime. I know it was late. I rememeber that we had been up all night. and i think, it was around 3:33 AM. My heart literally stopped from the pain. BUT GOD……

I went HOME. Yes, I SAW the witnesses. I was so VERY enveloped by the LOVE of HEAVEN. When I get to the darkest places, I now, have that memory, and JESUS does not allow, it to torment me. It ALWAYS comforts ME. IT ALWAYS brings HEALING. It is truly BEAUTIFUL!!! The very first thing that happened, is Sarah comes running up to ME…. She said, “Mom, what are YOU doing HERE?” Then, in the same breath, “Nevermind, that doesn’t matter come on!” She grabbed me, and took me through!!!! It was BREATHTAKING! I was in wonder, as everywhere I looked, was more pristine, and phenominal, and I just had no words, because, I was HOME. I was SAFE. I was FREE. I was where I ALWAYS DREAMED to BE, WANTED to BE. Where I COULD BE ME. WHERE I FIT!!! OH IT WAS JUST PERFECT!!!!!! I went into a room that was like a GRAND BALL ROOM. AND EVERYONE JUST SHOWERED ME WITH LOVE! SOMETHING THAT HAS ABSOLUTEY NEVER, EVER HAPPENED HERE ON EARTH. NOT ONCE,in full, that I recall..

The closest I EVER came, was when I was 16, some friends, threw a surprise party for me, and I got some hugs, and presents. And i remember thinking, if my life were done tonight, that’d be okay. And that seemed like a strange thought to have. But remember, as I share b4, I used to, as a teen have other issues with bad stuff, like self harm. But Jesus healed me. Thank Heaven’s The testimony of His love. It has now been 16 year, since any of that bad. Jesus is so GOOD!!!! I believe that IS Gone for good, and HE is used me, to help so many others, with that, thank God.

But back to Heaven…..  Jesus is Electric. He was struck by lightening on the cross. And he held a sphere with electricity in it, representing my life. After what felt like time, thought time exist not there, He came over to me, and said something. He said, “Well, I need your answer.” I said, “what is the question?’ “Do you want to stay?” I thought about it for a moment. Then I said, “This is so hard. Because, this is MY HOME. I have ALWAYS wanted to BE HERE. You KNOW THAT. But BEFORE you sent me THERE, I MADE a promise to YOU. I told YOU, that I would ALWAYS stay there for as LONG as YOU NEEDED me to, NO MATTER what. AND well, I just don’t think and feel that the work is finished there. He smiled, and He looked at me and said, ” My beautiful, my friend, My daughter, My precious, My Love, My everything Oh, how I want to thank you. For most don’t even think about it. They don’t count the cost. Now, to be fair, since that moment, I have had MANY moment, where I have said, “Um, if you’d given me a glimpse I would have said no.” But the truth is, I never would have said NO to Jesus. And, even my thinking I would, is kind of like a running joke. He is the Lion of Judah. My Lion KING. That movie took on NEW meaning for me. BOY, did it ever. There is more to what happened to me that day, but I don’t feel led to share ALL of it.  And, I will end with this, The SONG BUTTERFLY is coming on. OH I LOVE MY JESUS!!!! # HEAVENSCaLLINGCARDS

14 Jul 2018

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